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Out with the old, in with the new

January 1st, 2010 | Comments | Posted in Crooked Eyebrow |

I am trying so very hard to get rid of my old habits and bring in healthier new ones. I am trying, but am having such a hard time.

My maternity leave is over in 10 days and I am sick about it. I will be running on about 4 hours asleep a day, working full time and in the process to better myself.  At this point with a infant I am struggling just trying to find time to use the restroom and eat a meal sitting down.  Finger foods (junk) have become my staple and my only exercise has been bouncing a baby. No progress has been made so far. Fail. I want to win, dammit.

I’ m worried about failing, failing in front of so many readers and fellow sister(bros) here. So I know I am just having a weak moment but I know that some other people may be having them too and for different reasons.

I do realize that now is the time. It is time to put my old eating and lifestyle habits to rest. It’s a new decade and I am wanting a new me. A new healthier, stronger me. Not just for myself, but for my family as well.

Now I have to make a plan.  Have you made your plan, your re-think your shrink plan?

Small steps for me for right now:

1) drink water. While breastfeeding, I need to be drinking way more than I am right now.No more delicious yummy bottled Mexican cokes.

2) When going back to work in a week,  I need and have to plan my lunches so I am not tempted by the ease of a drive thru. My lunch break will be taken up with pumping, so I need to have my lunches planned and packed since I will be short on time.

3) By the end of this week I am hoping to dig out my treadmill and start walking. In 2 weeks I want to start the couch to 5k program. As much as I would love to be doing the half marathon along side my shrinking jeans family, my body is just not ready.

By starting newer or just plain healthier habits I am hoping to  be able to look at myself in the mirror and love what I see staring back at me. I have horrible self-esteem and poor body image. It is my goal in 2010 to love and accept what I see. My biggest fear is to pass this onto my children. For the love of everything good in this world, let them accept and love themselves for everything they are.

So here I go, trying one day at a time. Hoping to love and accept the new…

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  • oh your post made me cry! i have so so been there. well not the work thing (that was a whole nother issue) but the post-baby self esteem and that crazyness. You're so beautiful though, to everyone else. Just know that. You'll see it too, soon I'm sure, and for now you have a perfect plan to get started. Don't rush through and try to move mountains, the first half a year of a new baby is literally just 'survival' mode. It's rough! With everything that goes with it.
    *hugs*
    and ps. there is no such thing as failure.

  • I wish I could give you a big hug right now. I know how hard it is to go back to work. IT SUCKS. It's an emotional rollercoaster, and it takes awhile to get off. I'm here for you if you need to talk those first few days back. Seriously.

    When I went back to work, BJ was 7 weeks old. I pumped 3x a day at work until he was 1 year old. Tedious, but SO worth it. I would highly recommend packing a nice lunch to eat while you're pumping! So much better than eating crap!

    As far as exercise. Take it slow. Don't overwhelm yourself with too many more changes right now. Jump on for 5 or 10 minutes when you have time, and soon enough there will be more time!

    Lots of love, girl!!

    p.s. what kind of breastpump are you using? I bought one to use when I had Mia and only used it once. It's the kind that can be used by multiple people cuz the milk never touches the insides (or whatever), so if you're in the market, I can send it to you! It's an Ameda.
  • BrookeF
    you shouldn't be afraid to fail in front of us, we've all failed at one point or another. plus the only true failure is when you quit trying to adjust and make changes.

    one thing that helped me get away from fast food was not having the time to go out and grab something. packing your lunch will take a bit of effort at home, but if you already know you won't have time to run grab something hopefully that'll encourage you to plan ahead.
  • anng
    CE, with a new baby in the house, just having these goals is a major accomplishment!! You WILL DO IT!! We will support you!! These sound like doable goals....just take one step at a time and you will get there!! YOU ARE AWESOME!!
  • Lisa_ShrinkingJeans
    Donya, you are where I was almost a year ago, to the very minute. Go back to my first posts here at th Sisterhood and I bet I am saying the exact same things. The point is NOT to give up, do what you can when you can. We'll be here to help you along the way. You are not ALONE. Love you!!!!
  • It will take a lot of adjusting, but I know you can do it. You just kick ass like that.

    P.S. You're beautiful!
  • I think you are going to do great - you have a game plan and you know what you need to do to get the results you want! Baby steps are a start! It will just snowball from there! I agree with Nancy - we are in this together and 2010 is a year for change! Good luck in your weightloss! I hope to read more on your progress!
  • crookedeyebrow
    i think you are right, we are all going to do just great!
  • Baby steps. You have set some great goals. The lack of sleep is probably going to be your biggest deterrent, but if you are eating those well-planned lunches (and hopefully dinners) and setting a 15-minute minimum goal of treadmill time, you will sleep better in those four hours making the rest better. Your ass will be dragging, but not as much if you aren't getting exercise and just eating crappy food. You can do this!!
  • crookedeyebrow
    thank you!
  • Nancy
    I love your honesty. You can do this. We are all in this together. 2010 is going to be the best year yet and when it's over, we are going to love what we see in the mirror!
  • crookedeyebrow
    i think you are right!
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